Well it seems like all I have been doing is working and laying in bed wanting to cry. Things with me and hubby have not been quite right lately. Not since his first love came into town. I thought finding her and helping him catch up with how she was doing would get the closure that he has needed all of these years and since he got his closure things have not been the same. Let me explain.
Before we found her, he would sleep in the bed with me, kiss me, spend time with me, and tell me that he loves me. Things were great. We have been married for 10 years and still seemed like we were when we first got married. Well, he saw her, got his closure and told her goodbye, and then it changed. Now, he is sleeping on the couch, when I kiss him goodbye or goodnight he won't kiss me back. He won't tell me that he loves me and he would rather take naps on the couch than spend any time with me. Nothing I seem to do these days is right or even good enough.
Part of me wants to leave. Part of me feels that I deserve better. The other part of me thinks that this is just something that he is going through and that it will eventually pass. But the thing is that I don't know how much more I can handle. I deserve better than what I am having to deal with but I have put too much time and devotion into this marriage to just walk away. What do I do?
